"there is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you" -maya angelou

Three months into 2014.  I had made a self-declaration that this year marks the year of change - and slow changes have ensued . . .  

It has been 6 weeks since I have become a vegetarian (okay, closer to a pescetarian) . . .  

It took me 9 months to finally take the leap - but I did it - I enrolled in the Institute of Integrative Nutrition to become a certified holistic health coach.  What that means for my future?  I am not sure.  I just need to be inspired to lead a life with intention.  

How does a tax attorney hungry for money and success, do a 360 in less than 2 years into her job, want to drop everything to become a vagabond searching for spirituality and meaning?  Beats me. 

How did I get here anyway?  A stable corporate job, engaged to my college sweetheart, a beautiful home, a pile of student debt, a stressful life keeping up with the Jones, a lack of purpose and spirituality . . . I planned it.  That's how I got here.  I planned it all.  I never understood what people meant when they say watch out for what you wish for because you just might get it.  I sure do now.  I asked the universe for all this.  I got it and I realized I didn't want it.  Don't get me wrong - I am grateful for everything that I have and count my blessings as often as I can, but there is something tugging inside of me . . .  Perhaps it is just that same negative voice that is never content and always wants more in life or maybe, just maybe it truly is something deeper inside of me that is yearning for me to live this untold story I was meant to live.      

So who is to say I can't plan the next phase of my life - inching away from what I thought I had wanted back when I was 23?  I am sure I can create another whirlwind of change within this decade of my life.               

So where does the compass point to now?  I honestly don't know yet, but I am sure my path will unfold on my journey to becoming a holistic health coach, a vegetarian, and a true yogi (deepening my yoga practice).   

Along the way I sure do hope I can find the keys to these corporate handcuffs . . . 

Because in the end, we only regret the chances we didn't take.     

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"And you? When will you begin that long journey into yourself?" - rumi

Love,
Nat

the conspiring universe

I am happy to share that I have finally figured out how I will turn my "passion into a profession" (see Jump Ship by Josh Shipp)!  I have been so blindsided all these years by the things that sounded glamorous and sexy and did not stop to think what I truly loved deep down.  It is rather ironic because when it came down to it - it was right under my nose . . . literally . . . all those self-help books that I kept digging my nose in since I could remember.  That was my answer.  I don't want to go into much details with it until it really "launches," but I will keep you afloat.

inspired

Let's just say I was ready to start my journey in a new path of fashion law (new blog and all) - and then I stumbled across Jump Ship and it really made me think things through.  Last night, I attended my third fashion law event and came to the realization, once and for all, that it was not for me.

Although I will have to keep these corporate handcuffs on at my current job until I can really make a living doing what I love, it will be a new journey in pursuing my true passion that I will continue share with you.  Politiks 'n Blahniks no longer makes sense for this new pursuit, but life happens when you are too busy making other plans.      

"And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it."  -Paulo Coelho

This continues to ring true to me because the very day I plotted my new life-calling, Echkart Tolle (the one and only person I believe is really onto something about this state of humanity) "liked" my picture above on Instagram.  Eckhart!  I mean really!  If you know me, you know I died for a moment there.  I really believe the universe aligned at that very moment to have someone I idolize so much acknowledge me!  And so it begins. . .  

Love,
Nat