Thursday, December 12, 2013

on the edge

her edge was in the routines she built herself
I have been lacking something lately.  I don't know what it is.  Is it yoga and spirituality?  Is it fashion law and an exciting industry change?  Is it writing and creativity?  Whatever it is, I need it.  Yes, it has been a little over a year in my job and I am doing well.  I am growing and meeting great people.  But I need more.  I need excitement.

Complacency scares me.

I have been soul searching for the answer - to find a new mission and purpose to achieve - to create a plan and go full force with it like I did when I first started this blog.

I am exactly where I wanted to be, right?

Yet I am afraid it won't be too long before 28 year old me will confront 27 year old me and ask what happened?  Why were you so scared?  Why didn't you make a move?  Why didn't you fight hard enough for a more creative life?      

Monday, October 14, 2013

1 year and a few months later . . . I am back

It has been a long while since I have blogged.  Since my last post, I have had a whirlwind of amazing events.  I passed the bar.  I went to Europe.  I got engaged.  I started a challenging, yet rewarding, job.  I went on another vacation to Cabo with my family.  I bought a home with my fiance.  I got a promotion. . .

. . . All the while transitioning into my late 20s - and STILL trying to figure it all out.

I have come to find that, when I first started this blog at 22, I was figuring out my passion . . .
Then at 23, the voice of "reason" chimed in and forced me to pursue a stable career . . .
Then the latter part of my twenties was spent pursuing this career. . .
Then at 26, when I was finally in this "reasonable" career, the 22 year old in me has somehow emerged from hibernation and is confronting me . . . today at 27.

For the last year, I have spent my days working hard and proving myself in the corporate world, and my nights reading Coelho, Thoreau, Tolle, anyone who can give me a sense of meaning in everything I am and have been doing.

Every now and then I would have a wave of inspiration to blog and sort out my thoughts and understand my path and plan ahead for the next few years - but time always felt against me.  I was always too busy with something.  That is, until I stumbled across the ebook "What The Most Successful People Do Before Breakfast."  And to me, at least, that is to rise early and spend time sorting out my thoughts.  So I will continue this journey where I left off and continue to do things with intention.  Although I am exactly where I want to be at 27, I need to make sure I end up exactly where I want to be at 30 - balanced.

Snippets of my new home
Love, Nat
 
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